Thoughts and feelings #1

Hello. It's me

I'm sorry that I haven't posted on here this year. In all honesty. I really lost the passion to write. I feel like maybe doing something differently might make me want to write more. So I'm just going to post rambles about my life, what i'm thinking, what i'm feeling, est. I just want to let go of all of my thoughts and feelings. People might not really enjoy these posts. But I'm really just doing them for myself. I might start doing posts like I used to make. I just need to get back into blogging again.

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I feel like I standing on earth. The world is moving, people are going to work, hanging with friends, snuggling up to a significant other. I'm I'm completely alone. Standing still while the world goes by me. Everybody else has a plan. They know what they want to study, what job they want, when they will get married, when they will have kids, est est. While I have no fucking idea at all. Everyone is so sorted, and I'm just unsorted. Miscellaneous. Unimportant. A nobody. When I'm around people, I wish that I was what I feel like I am. Alone. I would rather be invisible then have to put up with people glaring at me when I enter a room, there eyes piercing into me. I guess that it would be alright if I had some friends. I haven't made any since I started collage. But to be fair, there isn't anyone that I would really get on with. I had such a good plan for collage.I would be finally doing what I enjoy, I would be away from people who knew my past, so in a way, I could re-invent myself. New friends, the lot. But like with many dreams in life, it never works out the way you Want. Didn't make new friends, I hate my course, and I'm still that unhappy person that I was in secondary school. I'm just glad that collage finishes in June. I still don't know what I want to do next year. But I could have a chance to re-invent myself again...

It's been a while...

Hello. It's me. I'm just wondering if after all these mouths you'll like to meet t- tbh this isn't really working is it. I've kinda been listening to a lot of Adele recently.

Remember me? I'm Sam If you can't remember, it's really been a while.

So it's been a hot minute since I have posted anything on here. And I'm sorry. Life just got in the way. Talking of life, nothing much has changed since I have last posted anything. Tbh my life is kinda more shitty then it was then. Life hey, it sure has a sense of humor.

Here is a quick run down of what's been happening

- I have started collage and I honestly hate it, I haven't really made any friends in my course, my course is kinda shit, and my timetable kinda takes the piss. On Monday I have to be there at 9am for a hour and a half. Tuesday, 9am -9:30 then a free period til 1:15, I rather just do all of my lessons at once. Wednesday is basically the same as Tuesday but my free starts at 10:30. At least I have thursday and Friday off thought.

- I kinda met this guy, but I don't really know what's happening there. Way too complicated to explain.

- (not even my life but whatever) My best friend has been dating a guy for the past 7 weeks and he's good for her, I'm happy for them.

- I have kinda changed a lot, to cut a long story short I think that I have depression (this might be explained in another post maybe idk yet.)

And that's all that has really happened in my life since my last post. How exciting my life is.

I'm going to start posting again on here, but I'm just going to say now, that I'm not going to be posting all the time. I'm aiming on posting at least once or twice a week. I will also make some more changes, like by dropping the "Just Me" in the post title and I'm going to changing what I post, it's mainly going to be lifestyle stuff mixed in with my life. Kinda like Carrie Bradshaw.

And that's it really, sorry if this was a short post, I'm writing this on my phone.

I'm happy to be back

Sam

Just Me - August Favorites

(I'm a day late, but whatever!)

Hello everyone!

Another mouth has come and gone! Summer is now officially over :/. This year's summer in Britain has been kinda shit, but not completely shit. At least there have been some sunny days! The start of September means that school is nigh, which is going to suck for those who are still in school. I, thankfully don't have to go back to that hellhole this year, as I'm starting collage on Thursday! (Their will be a blog post talking about to tomorrow, as well as the changes that will be made. But don't worry! I still will be posting! It just may not be as often as it is now.)

But anyway, I hope you all had a great August, and I hope that September is just as good for you! I'm now going to get to the point of this blog post and get to my August Favorites!

To see last mouth's favorites click here.

Here is my August Favorites!


1. Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn


I have heard a lot of good things about Gone Girl, both the book and the movie. But to be completely honest, I was never going to bovver to read the book or see the movie, as it didn't seem like my kind of thing. One day when I was looking in a charity shop, I seen the book, for only 50p. For 50p I just though "Why Not?" I'm just going to say now, that I don't really read a lot, I just tend to give up and get bored, but not with this book. I'm slowing making my way through the book (I'm on page 72 of 463), from what I have read so far, It's very good! I'm not going to spoil it for you, but it seems very "mind-fucky" so far.




2.  Tie Dye T-shirt

So, as I will be starting collage soon, I decided to get new clothes (I really need some new clothes!!) So while walking past New Look, I seen that they had a big summer sale. I never really buy anything in New Look, but I thought that I might as well seeing as their was a sale on. And while I just looking through the sales rail of clothing, I seen this shirt. I really liked the shirt, but at first I was unsure on if I wanted to buy it, I just only £8, really good price! But I just left it and did the rest of my shopping in town. On the way back to the car, I was just like "Fuck It, I want that shirt". So I went back into New Look and brought it. I love it! My only problem now is that summer is over, and I don't think that I could "pull-off" the tie dye look in winter :( I will fucking try though, don't you worry! :)

If you are interested in this T-shirt, New Look still have some in stock for £8! But only in Small. Click here for the link!

3. Mp3Tag

This is a really random thing to put on a favorites list, but whatever.


I decided to sort out all of my music in August, do a bit of spring cleaning with it I guess, mainly because I have songs with crappy LQ cover art, as well as names that are not in all caps, which really annoys me. I had to go though all 6000 and something songs, and this program really helped so thanks Mp3Tag lol.




4. Wilko's Spotless Daily Exfoliating Wash

I had seen a friend using this product before, she said that it was really good, and worked for her spots so I though't that I would pick it up, It was only £2! I just want to say now, that I'm not like really spotty of anything, I just get the random spot pop up on my face. But anyway, this facewash is very good, and It works for me as well! Very good for £2, and they have other products in the range that I will probably pick up soon, to see if they are good like this product.







So yeah, that's all of my favorite things this mouth, I feel like I didn't really pick a lot, but oh well.

Life update thingy coming tomorrow!


Byeeeee!

Just Me - Brain Dump #4

Hello everyone!

I thought that today I would do another brain dump. If you don't know how these blog post works, it is just where I offload everything that is on my mind into a blog post. I sometimes also write this posts, when I have really bad writers block, or if I can't be assed to write a really good blog post.

Not that these are not good but... I'll just shut up and get on with it.

Here is today's brain dump!


I feel that my previous blog post, where I shared a cooking recipe for egg fried rice wasn't really liked. Maybe it was too different to what I normally post?? Maybe everybody just likes what I normally post. I feel that nobody liked it because I literally had zero views yesterday. I normally get a couple after I have posted new post, but yesterday... Nothing. So yeah, I don't think that anybody liked it :/. Oh well right? We all learn for mistakes. I would still like to do cooking posts, but if nobody likes them, I just won't post them.

I enrolled into collage last Friday. I all when really good! I have to re-do my Maths GCSE as I only got a grade E, when I need a C or above. I also get the extra help that I need, like having all of my notes printed off for me, as my handwriting is really bad (honest to god - it's awful!) I also get a tutor for maths once a week, to help me.

I'm looking forward to starting collage. I would be finally be doing what I want to do. Media. I did Media at GCSE, but I also had to do other stuff that I didn't want to do. Now it will be all Media! ( plus 2 hours a week of Maths). I start collage on September 3rd. I means that I will be posting blog posts less often. I will still be posting, just not all the time. I will write a blog post next week, telling you about all the changes that will being made to this blog.

I've kinda fallen out with one of my friends. I messages here the other day, and she was being so crabby and so shitty so I  have just started ignoring her. Bye bitch! We will properly be fine in a couple of days haha. We often fall out and then become friends again. We are like a pair of Yo-Yo's. We like each other. We don't like each other. Est, Est.

As my sleeping pattern has been messed up and soon I have to be getting up a 6 AM (which sucks!) I have started taking sleeping pills. Not like ones you have to get from a doctor, over the counter ones that you can get from a pharmacy. To be honest they kinda work but sort of don't work. They say that they can get you to sleep within a hour, but it took me about 3 maybe 4 hours. So they sort of work, just not right away.

I hope you enjoyed this blog post, I think that this was one of my best brain dump posts lol.

Byeeee!

Just Me - The Bucket List

Hello everyone!

So I don't know if you can remember, but last mouth, I did a blog post called "The Anti-Bucket List" (which you can read here.) Where I wrote about all the things that I hope never happen in my life. Today I thought that I would write my bucket list, which things that I want to do before I die (even though I said I wasn't going to write this. Oh well.) My only ask is that you take into mind, that this is personal to me, so please don't get judgmental about it please! Thank you! Some of the things on this list may be odd or strange to you, but oh well.

So here is my bucket list!

My bucket list

1. Visit Paris.

I have always loved Paris, I love the overall look of Paris. To me Paris has this rather unique, romantic charm. There has been various movies or TV show episodes set in Paris, that are so romantic (An American In Paris, Funny Face & SATC: An American Girl In Paris Part Une & Part Deux.) This sounds very corny but, I would love if something like that happened to me in Paris. I also love the building in Paris, there are so many landmarks in Paris, like The Eiffel Tower, The Louvre, The Catacombs Of Paris and so many more. I have never been to Paris, but I would love to go!

2. Learn a second language.

Probably French (as I want to go to Paris, Durr!)

3. Get Married.

Later in my life, I would like to settle down with somebody. But not just anybody. They have to be somebody that I want to spend every single day of the rest of my life with, until I die. Anyway most people want this in life. But not just yet. Let me enjoy myself while I'm young!

4. Become famous (for anything!)

Ideally a singer. I will be the next Mariah!

Probably not, as I sound like a dying cat when I sing lol. Oh well, I just really like the glamorous aspect of being a singer, and the fact that you can put on this really elaborate concerts for people and they will actually want to come to see you sing live! 

5. Let somebody know how much they mean to me.

Actually already done this! But yeah, I just think that It's nice to let the people close to you know how much you appreciate and love them. 

6. Do a good deed without getting anything back.

I would love to give something in need something, just to hear there thanks and appreciation, knowing that you will not get anything back. I just think that it's a really nice thing to do.

7. See the Northern Lights.

They just look so beautiful, It's a excellent display of the beauty of nature. To me the Northern Lights look so magnificent!

8. Learn to play a musical instrument.

I would love to be able to play the piano or the guitar, I would love to be able to play one of my favorite songs on one of them!

9. Go to New York.

I love TV shows like Sex And The City and Friends. I would love to be able to go locations where they were filmed. I would also love to go to all of the New York landmarks, like The Statue Of Liberty, The Empire State Building. I would also like to go to the 9/11 Memorial, to play my respect to all of the people who lost there life's on that tragic day.

10. Get my dream job.

My dream job is to be able to work in the media (TV.) I think that I would feel like I have finally made it in life when this happens, As it is my dream to be able to work in the TV or other forms of media.

So yeah! That was my bucket list, I hope that you liked it!

Bye!

Just Me - I'm Actually NOT Screwed! (GCSE Results)

V quick blog post as it's 11PM.

But I collected my GCSE results... AND I'M NOT SCREWED!!!!!

YASSSSSSSSSSSSS THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!

I was scared as fuck going and collecting them, but when I opened them I was really happy with them. As I'm feeling generous, I will tell you all my results (don't say that I never treat you! ;) )

So here are my results:

Core Science - C

Additional Science - F (But at least I got a C in core!)

History - D

Maths - E (I knew that I would do really shit in maths, but I can always retake it next year!)

English Language - C

Catering - D (V surprising, as I payed zero attention in Catering.)

Media Studies - C

English Literature - D

ICT - D1

Entry Level RE - 3

I'm really happy and shocked with my results, I have done a lot better then I thought I would, considering that my target grades were mainly D's.

How did you do in your exams? Whether bad or good, let me know in the comments below :)

Byeee!

Just Me - A Letter To My 36 Year Old Self

Hi, I'm not dead thank's for asking.

Wow, it's be so long since I have written a proper blog post, and i'm sorry! For some reason I have lacking all motivation to write a blog post lately.

Anyway, I thought that It may be a fun idea to do one of them letters to your future self, and you give your future self advice and stuff like that (you get how it works right?), I kinda feel like adding some sort of humor into it.

I will be writing this letter to my 36 year old self, as that is 20 years from now, and i'm going to make a promise, if I am still using this blog in 20 years time, on 19th August 2035, I will react to this letter okay?

This may be kinda stupid or silly, oh well.

So, here is my letter to my 36 year old self.


                                         

                                       *** DO NOT READ UNTIL 19.08.2035  ***

Dear Sam.

Hello Sam! Why am I saying hello to you like your a different person, I'm gonna start again.

Hello Me! Well future me, hello future me!

I'm writing to you from the year 2015, and may I just say, what HAPPENED. You are like really old!!111!11!!

I'm joking, you don't look a day over fabulous :)

Anyway, I'm writing to you from 2015, to give you advice from your 16 year old self (your gonna need it.) So like yeah, here is some advice.

1. Don't go all crazy about being old. 30 isn't even old, at least your not 40!

2. Whatever you do, do date an asshole, You don't even like assholes remember.

3. Also, don't date somebody who makes you feel like second best. If you do, I will disown you future me! And now, I will give a quote to remember and to take with you, from the Queen Of Pop, Madonna : "Second best is never enough, you'll do much better baby on your own." (I hope you still love this song.)

4. Be a cool parent!

(Are gifs still a thing in the future???)



If you child want's to drink, let them.

If your child want to do smoke or do weed or do hardcore drugs, let them just get on with it.
They want to have sex, let them.

Remember, you have done a lot worse while you were a teenager (The skate park! *Give you a shameful "I'm disappointed you" look*.)

Let Regina George's Mum been your parenting inspiration.


5. Still use GIFS, even if they are hilariously outdated.

You need them in your live k.

6. Keep on being that nicest (and baddest) bitch around, and keep on throwing that shade gurllllll.


7. Keep people who have changed your life in fantastic way, you need them.


8. Keep on writing this blog lol.

To be honest future me, I really can't be assed to give you anymore advice, your on your own gurl.

But seriously, keep on doing what you do yeah!

Love from

16 year old you.


Well that was kinda dumb and stupid. Oh well.

On another note, I get my GCSE results tomorrow. And I'm shitting myself. I will blog about it.

The post will most likely be called "Well, I'm Fucked".

*Sigh*

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Just Me - Brain Dump #3

Hello everyone

Another brain dump today, as I have been lacking all motivation to blog this week (sorry not sorry).

In fact, nothing really interesting has happened this week, so this is going to be a very short blog post (again, sorry not sorry)

• This blog is one mouth old today. I'm actually quite surprised that the blog has lasted this long tbh. 
• My laptop charger completely broke. So my laptop was completely dead (I could use this as a excuse not for blogging. But I won't. Anyway I don't like to use the Blogger app, as to me, a paragraph of text on my phone looks like a lot, but looking at the post on a PC, it is actually not a lot of text.)
• From the clothes that I decided I didn't want from my wardrobe, I have made about £40. Quite happy with that.
• I'm going to Exeter on Sunday, to most likely spend all of that money on new clothes, lol.
• I've have been getting into Kylie Minogue and Whitney Houston's music recently. Not a big, important thing, but I thought I would share that with you.
• I watched the season 6 final of Grey's Anatomy... and cried so fucking hard.
• Next week I pick up my GCSE results and enroll into collage.

                                                                          (I'm being sarcastic.)

That's it really. I told you this blog post would be very short. I'm sorry!

I'm thinking that my next blog post would be a music review, but I don't know. It all depends on how motivated I am tomorrow. 

Byeeeeeeeeee!

Just Me - 30 Lessons I Have Learned From Secondary School

Hello everyone!

So, as I have now finished secondary school (high school) and been enjoying a extended summer holiday for the past 8 weeks, I though't that I would share with you what I have learned from secondary school. I'm also doing this as school as came into my mind again, as I have to pick up my GCSE results in 2 weeks time!

Anyway here is 30 lessons that I have learned from secondary school.

1. Never let somebody borrow your pens/pencils. Even if they are the nicest person in the world, they probably won't give it back to you.

2. No matter how much pens you have, you will lose them all within a week. Same with the rest of your stationary.

3. People are assholes.

4. You will most likely be criticized if your different in anyway. It's funny, that in 2015, people still criticize people who are different. If you dress in a different way, or like different things, you will be criticized for it.

5. If a teacher say's a piece of homework can't be done in one night. They are lying. Anything can been done in one night.

6. Got a 500 word essay to write? It can be done in one night. It will be shit, but it can be done in a night.

7. Revision is rather pointless. It just goes through one ear and out of the other.

8. Every day dragggggggggggggggs on while a school.

9. If you hate school, like me, you will probably be counting down the days until you have a holiday or until you leave for good. 192 days, 191 days, 190 days, and so on.

10. Food from school canteens are:

1. Shit.

2. Overpriced.

11. At lot of the stuff teachers banged on about, was never important, and will never be in my later life.

You don't know how to do your taxes? Well at least you Pythagoras theorem. You use that skill ALL THE TIME, right?

12. School's need to teach more important stuff, such as buying a house/car, taxes and how banks work. Not pointless stuff that "you need to know when your doing _____ or _____."

13. Did I mention that people are assholes?

14. While at school, a minute feels like a hour. A hour feels like a Day, and a day feels like a year.

15. Music like really helps to speed the day along.

16. Doodling in books helps to.

17. A lot of teachers are assholes as well.

18. In 2015 there are still clique's. It's not as defined but it's still there.
Here are some of the clique's at my old school.

• The Hipsters. They love Festivals, alcohol, alternative music, cigarettes, drugs, weird clothing that make's them look like there grandparents and posh boys/girls.
• The Sluts. They love dick. 
• The Man-whores. They love pussy and tits. They also love to talk about all 52 2 people they have had sex with. 
• The Chavs. They love smoking, drugs and pissing of teachers. They will be going far in life, with there BTEC Level 1's in hairdressing and pluming. 
• The Nerds. They love school, sucking up to teachers and nerdy things. 
• People in smaller groups: they like not even worth talking about, they are like nobodys!!!11111
• And finally. People with no groups. Good for you! You like doing your own thing.

Before people ask, I was not in any group. Also no group was ever like the plastics of anything. 

19. Energy drinks will get you through any day. 

20. 99% of people didn't listen in sex education. As clearly shown when somebody gets chlamydia or gets pregnant at 16. #ilistenedinsexed

21. You will forget every single thing your learned in school as soon as you leave.

"Hitler? Like who even."

22. Once you leave school, you will stop talking to people who were your friends. Sad but true.

23. When not paying attention to a teacher, and they decide ask you a question, as they know you not paying attention. Just say that your can't remember the answer or just guess. 

24. You heart beats like a million beats a second when somebody asks:

"Did you do the homework?"

Me: What. 

What Homework. 

"It was set last mouth."

Me: 

25. This. So true it hurts.

26. Sometimes, when the day was just insufferable, I would think: "Maybe if I bang my head hard enough on this desk, I could knock myself out."

27. People are annoying.

"You saw your friend yeasterday, stop fucking screaming."

"OMG move!"

"You walk so slowwwwwwwww."

28. Me when I had enough of the annoying peoples bs.

29.  Monday to Friday = drags on and are so slow. Saturday and Sunday = goes so fast.

Like what even. 

I demand to speak to the professor of life. EXPLAIN THIS TO ME!

30. What ever stuff your going through while at school...

...It will all be alright in the end, trust me. And if you can't wait to leave, keep counting down the days, I will come soon! :)

So there you go! I hope you enjoyed this post. If I have overused GIFS, I'm sorry!

Byeeeeeeeee!

Just Me - Music Addiction

Hello everyone!

Just a quick post today, as I'm with a friend (who's fallen asleep lol.)

I have another confession to make. My name is Sam, and i'm addicted to music.

Like, I know a lot of people say stuff like "I can't live with music."

I seriously can't.

The music on my phone, which is everything that I like and listen to has filled up a 32GB memory card.

Like seriously. I need all of that music.

I listen to music literary all that time, just look at my last.fm. I'm always listening to music.

I seriously can't live without it. I'm addicted.

I love and adore music. I love so many artists and there music.

Just god. If I never had music in my life. I honestly think I would dead.

Every time that I've had a shit day, and just want to ignore the world. Music was there.

Whenever I was board, Music was there.

Whenever I wanted to get up, dance and celebrate. Music was there.

Thank you for being there music.



I don't really know where I'm going with this post.

Oh well.

Hopefully there is a better post tomorrow!

Byeeeeeeee!

Just Me - Brain Dump #2

Hello everyone!

Happy August! I hope that your mouth is going well so far.

As (again), I don't really have anything to post, I thought that I would do another Brain Dump today. As I enjoyed the last post, as I liked just offloading all on my thoughts and feelings into a blog post.

So anyway, here is my second Brain Dump!

• My best friend has gone on holiday for a week. So I have had nothing to do. Like at all. It really sucks.
• I've found out when I have to enroll into Collage. August 21st. The day after results day.
• Talking about results day, that's this mouth. I think that I'm really screwed. But I did try my best, and that is all that matters right? As long as I get good grades in English and Maths I'll be alright.
• I've sorted out all of my clothes, and gotten rid of all of the stuff that I don't wear. My wardrobe is the cleanest It's ever been, I will most likely last of a couple of day. Then get real messy again.
• Rain B-roll leaked. Again, this was another really big treat.

Tbh, the only other things that I have been doing is watching Netflix and listening to music

***Shameless attempt at getting friends lol***
If you wanna see what I have been listening to vist my last.fm profile which you can find here.

So that's all really. I hope you enjoyed this Brain Dump!

Byeee!

Just Me - July Favorites

Hello everyone!

As July is about to end, I thought that I would share my favorite things from this mouth. So enjoy!

1. Grace & Frankie

So, I discovered Grace & Frankie while going though Netflix trying to find something to watch. Do you ever do this when your trying to find something desperately good to watch? Me too, but I normally just give up and find a movie that I have seen a billion and one times.

Anyway, after I watched the first episode of Grace & Frankie I was hooked! I watched it all in 2 days. The series is extremely funny, It's unique as well. No story like it has been in other shows. I cannot wait for series 2! 

If you want to know what Grace & Frankie is about, here is a summary that I'd stolen borrowed from Google: "For as long as they can recall, Grace and Frankie have been rivals. Their one-upmanship comes crashing to a halt, however, when they learn that their husbands have fallen in love with each other and want to get married. As everything around the ladies is coming apart, the only thing they can really rely on is each other. "

And because I'm really nice, here is the trailer!

2. Slushies 

So, as you are properly well aware if you live in the UK that there was a heatwave in the UK. And July has been really hot everyday. A local shop near to me started selling slushies and it has been a lifesaver. 

They taste really nice and they are a good treat to cool yourself down with!









3. Samsung slim external DVD drive

As you know if you read my blog post from a couple of days ago my DVD drive in my laptop broke. I order this of Amazon, for something like £16.99 and I works perfectly! Thank god for Amazon right?






4. Spooks 
This is another Netflix find! I never watched the series before, but I remember playing a really good online spooks game when I first got Internet back in 2006. Sadly I don't think the game is there anymore.

Anyway Spooks is about people who work for MI5. Trying to save the country from all kinds of threats. This is basically a British rip-of of 24. Expect that Spooks started development before 24. 

Here is another borrowed summary from Google: "A team of agents in the British security intelligence service work to protect the UK from terrorists and other threats to national security. Harry Pearce, head of MI-5's counterterrorism section based in the highly secure suite of offices called The Grid, oversees them and deals with the often dirty politics of the spy game."





So there was my favorites for this mouth. I hope you enjoyed it!

I shall see you tomorrow in August.

Byeee!

Just Me - Technical Difficulties!

Hello everyone!

Don't you just hate it when everything goes tits up?

Basically the DVD drive in my laptop is dead/dying. This is a rather minor thing to go wrong, but I do use it a lot, to play and create my own DVD's. I think that it is a problem with the laser. As it will no longer burn or play discs (it trys!) I have been trying to fix it, so that is why I haven't posted since Monday? or Tuesday?

My plan is to buy a external DVD drive, when I have the money.

Anyway. enough about that.

Nothing really else has happened, and its 10:19PM right now, so I really have no energy to write a really good blog post (I'm Sorry!)

The only real other thing that has happened is that the B-Roll footage of Vogue has leaked! Some of you probably don't care, but for me and other Madonna fans, its a really big deal, as we had clips and snippets of this. So it's like all of my birthdays and Christmases all rolled into one.

So yeah, that's it. I'm sorry that it's not a lot, better content will come tomorrow!

Bye for now!

Just Me - Brain Dump #1

Hello everyone!

So today, I really don't have anything good to post, like at all.

Literally, my brain is an empty space right now.

So I throught that it (may) be a fun idea to do something called a "Brain dump". Which is basically where I tell you all everything that I'm thinking of right now, and tell you what I have been up to today.

So, here is my "Brain dump"!

• Basically right now, there this whole bitchyness going on between a friend of mine. To made a rather long story small here is just the basics. My friend is bitching to me about one of her friends (who I can't stand, for the record). and then the next day, my friend and her friend are all over each over. Don't you just hate that?

• I've had a hair cut! So now my hair is really short and It feels really odd!
• I watched Ghost yesterday. You know, the film with Patrick Swayze, Demi Moore and Whoopi Goldberg. I love that film. If you have never seen it, see it! The film has a fantastic score as well!

• The only real other thing that I have been doing today has been listening to music. If you want to see what I have been listening to vist my last.fm profile!
• I had to get up early today, as there was like builder coming to my house to do something? I don't really know what he did, as I when't back to sleep, lol!
• I go myself a copy of the MDNA Tour on DVD today. I found it on ebay for only £4.80. Really cheap!

So that's it really! I hope you have enjoyed this "Brain dump". If you want more of these, please tell me, as I think this might be a good post to make every now and then.

Bye!

Dealing with negativity and balls*it

Just a quick blog post today!

So I thought that it would be a nice idea to create (another) list today. I think that of late I have like this odd obsession with lists. I promise I will stop!

Anyway I thought that it would be a good idea to create a list of how to deal with negative ballshit

1. Tell then to go fuck themselves. This almost always works.

2. Pretend like you don't even care. (Even if you do)

3. Get backup from your best friends, to normaly works too

4. If your in school. Tell a teacher or something. I know it's will feel like your making it worse, but you won't. Trust me.

Told you it will be a quick post!

Byeeee!

Just Me - Bingewatching

Hello everyone!

So, I'm pretty sure that everyone is well aware of bingewatching. For those who don't know what it is, it's when you watch multiple episodes/series in one sitting. Hell, there's even TV programs that have been created to binge on, like Grace & Frankie and Orange Is The New Black. To me when I really get into a tv series, I'M. ADDICTED. TO. IT. Like a couple of days ago, I got into Grace & Frankie on Netflix. I finished it the next day.

See what I mean about addicted.

Isn't it odd. Thinking that getting into TV shows, and watching a lot of them is bad.

One day I can see there being a TV Addicts Anonymous group.

"Hi everyone, I'm Sam and I'm addicted to TV."

"Hello Sam."

"It's been a week since my last bingewatch. I fell of the wagon when Season 7 of Orange Is The New Black came out."

Like yesterday for example. I watched 7 episode of Grey's Anatomy in a row, simply because the end of Season 5 is so fucking good! (That cliffhanger though)

As I'm writing this, Im watching Grey's Anatomy. The lives of fictional people are better then my own life I think.

I've always bingewatched stuff, It's just how I am. And like since Netflix's came around. Oh god, Netflix and me is a story for another day.

So what have you bingewatched? Here is my, shamefully long list of mine.

• Grey's Anatomy
• Buffy
• Desperate Housewives 
• Friends
• Downton Abbey
• Miranda
• Sex And The City
• Bad Girls (UK TV series about a women's prison.)
• Footballer's Wives
• Absolutely Fabulous
• ER

So yeah, I don't know where I'm going with this, again. 

Byeeeeee !

Just Me - The Anti-Bucket list

Hello everyone!

So while thinking of blog ideas. I hit a brick-wall. I just had no idea. So I goggled "Blog post Ideas" and I stumbled across a blog named Fat Mum Slim. There was an fantastic blog post about blog post ideas. One of the ideas was to write your anti-bucket list. Which is a list of things you hope you never have to do before you die.

I thought that this would be a fun idea to do, I could also maybe share my bucket list on another day. Well maybe, but it is rather personal, so I don't know. Maybe one day I will share this. So without further adieu here is my anti-bucket list.

My Anti-Bucket List

1. Get divorced.

Although 42% of marriages end in divorce (Source), I really don't want this to happen. It's so sad to think that if you get divorced, you have seriously and completely misjudged your soul mate, somebody who you thought that you would spend your whole life together, If that ever happened to me, I would feel like jumping off a bridge. 

2. Getting a prison sentence.

In my opinion, people who are in prison are lowlifes. They have broken the laws set into place to protect and safeguard us. Somebody breaking these, to threatening our well-being to me makes them lowlifes. Getting sent to prison is the lowest of the low.

3. Painful/lonely death

To me, the idea of ding alone, or painfully makes me feel kind of depressed. I mean imagine, being in so much pain, feeling like a million sharp knifes stabbing you all over, until you take your last breath. Or being completely alone on this lonely planet, with nobody caring or thinking about you, or even being with you when you die.
Imagine that being your last moment on this earth.

4. Being stuck in a dead end job

It must really suck being stuck in a job, which you don't enjoy and is at an complete dead end. Hell, your only still doing it because you get paid at the end of the mouth (probably not enough). If it was me, I would probably slam my head against my desk until i could be sent home sick, maybe if you do it like all the time you could get fired. That's a plus, right!

So I hope you enjoyed my Anti-Bucket list, I'll see you again tomorrow!

Bye!

Just Me - Heatwave!

Just a quick blog post today!

Right now in the UK there is an extreme heatwave going on. If your not from the UK, let me just tell you. ITS NEVER HOT! All year around we moan and complain that it's too cold and that we can't wait for summer.

When summer comes around, we all lose are shit. We go into meltdown. We get boiling hot and we sweat everywhere. British people and summer don't mix well.

So yeah, I don't really know where I'm going with this. The heat has fucked with my brain. Very random.

Byeeeeeeee!

Just Me - T.M.I. Tag Thing

Hello everyone :)

So I through I would do the T.M.I. tag thingy that You Tubers normally do, so that you all could get to know me better. So here we go!


1: What are you wearing?

I'm wearing shorts and a t shirt, as it is really hot right now in the UK.

2: Ever been in love?

No, not yet. Well maybe I guess, but It wasn't true love.

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?

At the time, yes it was terrible. But looking back on it wasn't really that terrible at all.

4: How tall are you?

5 foot something, Idk.

5: How much do you weigh?

Too much!

6: Any tattoos?

Nope.

7: Any piercings?

I had my cartilage on my left ear pierced for awhile, but i took it out.

8: OTP?

Meredith And Derek.

9: Favorite Show?

Hard choice! If I had to pick it would have to be Desperate Housewives.

10: Favorite bands?

I don't have a favorite band. So i will just tell you my favorite singer, who is Madonna.

11: Something you miss? .

Getting a latest single on CD, anyone else remember that?

12: Favorite song?

Viva Forever - Spice Girls.

13: How old are you?

16 years old.

14: Zodiac sign?

Aquarius.

15: Quality you look for in a partner?

Somebody who love's me. Just the way I am. (If you know where this is quoted from, we can be friends.)

16: Favorite Quote?

"Chaos is an angel who fell in love with a demon" - Christopher Poindexter.

17: Favorite actor?

Audrey Hepburn and Marilyn Monroe.

18: Favorite color?

Blue.

19: Loud music or soft?

Depends on my mood, but mainly soft music.

20: Where do you go when you're sad?

For a long walk in some farm back passages, as it is somewhere were there is not a lot of people.

21: How long does it take you to shower?

10-15 mins I think.

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

Once I finally get up, about 20 mins.

23: Ever been in a physical fight?

Yes, in primary school, haha.

24: Turn on?

Idk, people who aren't assholes.

25: Turn off?

People who are assholes

26: The reason I joined Blogger?

I thought that it would be a fun idea.

27: Fears?

Spiders.

28: Last thing that made you cry?

The "choice me, love me" speech from Grey's Anatomy.

29: Last time you said you loved someone?

A long time ago.

30: Meaning behind your Blogger Name?

When deciding on what I wanted to post, I couldn't think, so I just decided to call it Just Random Me.

31: Last book you read?

Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck.

32: The book you're currently reading?

Breakfast At Tiffany's - Truman Capote.

33: Last show you watched?

Grey's Anatomy.

34: Last person you talked to?

My mum lol.

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

My friend.

36: Favorite food?

Pasta.

37: Place you want to visit?

Paris and New York.

38: Last place you were?

In my bedroom lol.

39: Do you have a crush?

Nope.

40: Last time you kissed someone?

Like nearly two years ago. Well now I'm depressed (just kidding, I don't really care tbh.)

41: Last time you were insulted?

Can't remember tbh.

42: Favorite flavor of sweet?

Watermelon.

43: What instruments do you play??

I don't play any instruments.

44: Favorite piece of jewelry?

My Deathly Hallows necklace, that I haven't worn in years.

45: Last sport you played?

Is running a sport? If it is then running.

46: Last song you sang?

Like A Prayer - Madonna.

47: Favorite chat up line?

"You wanna fuck?" haha.

48:Have you ever used it?

Nope.

49: Last time you hung out with anyone?

Yesterday.

50: Who should answer these questions next?

idk, anybody.

So I hope you enjoyed getting to know me better :)

Goodbye everyone!

An Introduction

Hello internet! 

Well, I don't really know why I'm saying "Hello" to anyone as this blog is new, so most likely nobody is reading this. Maybe somebody has accidentally stumbled across this, while searching through the endless void that is the internet. Maybe, this person was looking for porn or something (hey, this is the internet we're talking about, 1 in 5 searches is for porn) and they found this page. My name is Sam what's yours? :)

Well, anyway welcome! I'm sending you a virtual hug, whoever you are. This is my blog, my first blog actually. I'm still new to this, so everything may look shitty right now, hopefully everything will look perfect when I get the hang of it. Right now, I am unsure on what I will be posting, I will be posting some stuff from my life, and some other stuff.

(Possibly an) fun fact! This blog is called Just Random Me as I will be posting random stuff. Like Duh.

What I have planned to post:

Just Me - Stuff about me and my life, as well as some stories from the past and stuff like that.

Film/TV/Music/Book/Product Reviews - I will most liking be doing TV,film and music. As I don't read a lot of books. I'm unsure if I will do product reviews, but I am open to the idea.

Cooking Recipes? - If I would decide to do this, It will be a rare feature, as cooking is not my forte.

Ask Sam - This will be introduced when more people read this blog. It will be an agony aunt sort of thing, where I give you advice and stuff.

And that's it! I hope that this is a good first blogpost. I don't really know how to end these things so, like goodbye, have a good day/night!